hot wax on a cool night

Current Mood: bouncy

August 26th The Big Tasty will be coming to Rich's (resident landed), and every Friday to follow..... it is so on!! Friday night at afterhours the whole Rich's crew showed up... I had a surreal moment... seeing fucking Mark D hanging out was awseome... I realized he's just a normal guy... actually a hot ass metro... and he was just looking to hang out and have a good time... we got to talk about music, the scene, radio, art, records... it was pretty nice just shooting the shit and having a cocktail. Fenominal man!
Today I had dinner with Riley... it was nice catching up on old times and beeing able to be friends again is a relief from all the heartache... it reminded me of how we used to be.... then it was about smokin pot and playin records. I guess everything else just scewed things, but it would be nice to get back to that.
I am so horrible at relationships sometimes.... I feel like they exist seperate from my control in a glass case I don't have the key for! I'm driven by sex primarily... which at least I can admitt to, although secretley I seek love... which is such a golden ticket, and do I look like a Charlie!?

Current Mood: amused

I have always had one of those crazy lives where really bad shit happens, followed by really good shit..... So bring on the good stuff baby.
This last week a series of weird coincidences have occurred (which isn't out of the ordinary for me) that are just bizarre.
The ass painting already sold.... weird story... my friend Travis was outside Dean's talking to this couple from Germany on Tuesday Night when I noticed the guy had an Ibizza shirt on... I commented about how that's where I want to end up spinning one day... yada yada yada... to make a long story short, he buys my ass for $150.... to get even more weird, he has Joey sign it to his girlfriend... who's name is Nicole.... fucking bizarre. I took it as a sign... like "keep truckin"!! Immediately after that my phone rings and the promoter for Rich's tells me I'm in..... my life flashes before my eyes!

I have to get ready for my meeting with the owner of Rich's.... I'm fucking freaking out,... everything is falling into place.. Rich's has been my dream since I was a kid.... when I heard the news about bagging resident DJ, I started balling like a little kid.... my friends thought I was crazy. I guess some people just don't feel with the same intensity I do, especially regarding music!!
I have my fingers crossed... thank you DJ Mark D for all your support... you are a bad ass.... and thank you Micheal DeGrace for making me want to spin 5 years ago....
I just hope I don't make an ass of myself.... tell all when I know all....

Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: Deep Dish (George is On)

Life really does go on..... it bitch slaps you in the face and then sticks its hand down your pants for a reach around!! HAHA. All I can do about the warehouse is try my best... I have good friends/family on my side... but a sugar daddy sure would be nice.. hehe... naghhh, I got enough sweetness already! There are big things coming for my music, I can feel it... it makes me ansy.. these thoughts occupy my incessantly. I got hang out with the Rich's big wigs... Dj Mark D even let me throw down a record... I almost spooged on myself... it was my first time using a rain mixer and definitely my 1st time playing on Rich's main floor!! It fucking rocked!!! I think I may want to be a circuit DJ.... who knows.
So apparently there's a nude painting of me to be unveiled at Joey's show on Thursday.... he won't show me yet, but I think its my ass... I wonder if it sells? Well, I have to run... meeting time... Big Tasty 101!!!!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: rain on the roof

My life sucks...... I'll soon become a crack whore giving blow jobs for hotel money and smack so I can drown out the unrealized dream I once had of being a rockstar. I don't know what to do..... awww, fuck it all!! I swear life is a neverending lesson of just how cruel people can be to one another. Trust is a word I can no longer hold in my vocabulary......
Enough already!!!!
Tonite I go for Rich's .... may the DJ gods look down on me!!!

Current Mood: nauseated

Off and on... off and on.... this emotional rollercoaster is making me nauseous. Out comes the dramamine and my 9!! haha I think looking back on love can't get you forward but sometimes we are selfish to our own needs... So, my new efforts are to work on myself first, and maybe the rest will follow. The music scene is ravenous...but I think I am accelerating.. I have found a new lover...ART.. I guess I'm poly..my husband is music and my wife is art. Let's make babies.. hehehe.
Our AC at the warehouse has been out from Thursday till Monday... it was a hot house so I stayed away as much as I could... slept at Joey's mostly...2 things I can't live without climate control and my cell phone... which I lost the charger for so I've been on the fritze the last day or so...I've been spazzing.
So, I actually miss David.. I never thought I would say that... So I have devised a "10 things I miss about David list"!!
1. His annoying ass alarm clock going off and on for an hour in the morning.
2. Interrupting him during his business conferences.
3. Having someone to bitch at..
4. Not being scared at night.
5. Random life advice.
6. Our TiVo time.
7. His cooking.
8. His help at After hours.
9. Who's gonna take out the trash?
10. (drum roll please).... his random ball scratching!
Like a fungus he has grown on ye!
Enough... I think I'll be sick...
I said I wasn't going to go out tonite, but if Ashley calls I may have to tag along.
Here are a few pics I worked on earlier...

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Zombie by the Cranberries

So, tonite I went out with my gay boys and ,my English friend Cloie.... we had a blast... starting at Rip Cord, and ending up at an afterhours club called Eve, we danced to house music like drunken fools till about 3 am...... I miss Riley.... I haven't a clue what to do.... I just called him, like a drunken idiot... thank god he didn't answer....what the hell would I say...(as though I could form a sentence..)?? I know what I should do, however I also know what I want to do.... so I'm going over there,,,, I'lll track my digression tommorrow...

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Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: chooo choo train

So I am back at the warehouse for a while.... I had been staying with my bf for quite a while and haven't slept in my bed for months. Things have been getting kinda "rough" between us for a while, and lets just say it has to get worst before it ends,,, hehe. I have to laugh at it, for the alternative is to cry uncontrollably. I feel pretty alone right now, thank god I have a roommate.. I would say roomate(s), however the "blond with child" has picked up and left like a fart in the wind!! ::::ATTENTION ALL LJ READERS: WE NEED A RELIABLE ROOMMATE:::::
You know, I always thought of myself as a good girlfriend, but after being told you are horrible, you begin to believe it... I think I have to rebuild my self esteem before rejoining the dating world.
Rather I like to admit it or not, it took me a while to get over my last relationship, and I have a feeling it will take a bit longer to get over this... we were very serious.... I have never used the word forever with someone, and thought I meant it. What the fuck do I know I am only 23.... the only things I'm good with are records, not people. Telling someone you love them several times a day, and then not having them around takes something from you, and I'm not sure how to get it back... I don't think I ever will. I really just want to be like I was,,, independent.... it's totally in my nature, but apparently so was the "little housewife", so I have to find a balance in the future.
As bad as it hurts now, I wouldn't take back any of it... I think I learned a lot... most importantly, baggage from past realtionships can destroy present ones, cheating (in any form) destroys trust, which is the basis of respect, and love is splendid despite pain.
Well, I have to plan my set... I have a HUGE DNB show coming up.... Marcus Intalex is headlining a free show at Clarks and Deans next Thursday, it's my Drum and Bass debut,... and I'm a bit nervous!!

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Davids damn alarm clock